Friday, May 22, 2009
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Depression...NOT!
Ok so I suffer from depression now and then..I am not afraid to admit it as I once was. I always thought I was just being weak or something like that. I have found that my relationship with Jesus has helped me through. Also good friends here online. (Thank you Stacey :) I find it easier to talk online than in person as I tend to put on a "everythings ok" front even when its totally not. Little things can set me off, not getting a promotion at work can lead me a freak out and thinking I am worthless..etc. But I only have melt downs like these once in a while. Medication can help so don't be afraid to ask for it although side effects can be a bummer also. Do you suffer from depression? What do you do to combat those feelings?
Its a tough world, its no wonder that people suffer from depression..economic woes alone can keep folks up at night. We are in this thing together ya'll!
One World, One people!
Peace!
Amy
Sunday, May 17, 2009
The Ascension of Our Lord, Holy day of Obligation
The Ascension of Our Lord, which occurred 40 days after Jesus Christ rose from the dead on Easter Sunday, is the final act of our redemption that Christ began on Good Friday. On this day, the risen Christ, in the sight of His apostles, ascended bodily into Heaven (Luke 24:51; Mark 16:19; Acts 1:9-11).
Don't forget Mass on Thursday for this Holy Day of Obligation :)
Don't forget Mass on Thursday for this Holy Day of Obligation :)
Happy Birthday to my little girl
Well Teresa turned 13 on May 14th!
I can't believe it.
I have had the flu all week, coughing and can't sleep right now so her party has been postponed till next weekend when my half brother and sister come into town. That is super exciting also!
Teresa has mixed emotions about being a teen and has told me she is still a kid till shes 14 and then she is grown up.
LOL
Glad to hear I have one more year of her being a "kid" :)
I can't believe it.
I have had the flu all week, coughing and can't sleep right now so her party has been postponed till next weekend when my half brother and sister come into town. That is super exciting also!
Teresa has mixed emotions about being a teen and has told me she is still a kid till shes 14 and then she is grown up.
LOL
Glad to hear I have one more year of her being a "kid" :)
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Meeting my half brother and sister again!
They are coming to Washington DC for Memorial day!
I am excited, nervous, worried, etc!
I will write all about it here :)
Don't know what to think!
AHHHHHHHH
OK Later for now !
I am excited, nervous, worried, etc!
I will write all about it here :)
Don't know what to think!
AHHHHHHHH
OK Later for now !
Sunday, May 3, 2009
Where I am coming from
I am inspired by my new friend Judith to examine all the times of my life. I will start with a little info about my childhood. I am the only child of my mom and dad. They wanted lots of kids but mom had infertility issues so viola, just me.
My Papa was married before and had 3 kids who are a bit older than me.(one passed away) His wife left him while he was serving in Vietnam. Then he was stationed in Maryland and met my lovely mama and they married 6 weeks after they met!
I found out about my brother and sisters at his funeral!
Mom told me that and I was like..boy you move fast huh!
I was born 10 months after they married :)
My Papa was super cool, he was a big guy 6 foot 5 with coal black hair and really dark eyes. My mom is schizophrenic but she was doing really well when they met, kind of like the schizophrenia was on the back burner and it got really bad after I was born. She was in a lot of hospitals all my life and Papa was so cool, cause we got to eat out alot and he was laid back. I sometimes would come home and find mom was in the hospital. It was hard on us both.
When he was alive every year we went to ocean city. I remember how his eyes sparkled when he looked at the ocean, like he belonged there, at the ocean, like a sailor. I love the ocean too and think of him anytime I am near the ocean. We used to sing songs, and he took me to the park and to see the airplanes at the airport. We watched them land and take off. We used to sing songs together. I have good memories, she made a bunny cake at Easter with 2 round cakes, I learned that from her. Mom used to take me to easter egg hunts, sometimes hosted by the hospitals she was in. I was in childrens chior and she loved to hear me sing. She took me to Church, sometimes I would go to Mass with this cool family down the street also. I actually learned a lot of Catholic traditions from them. My dad wasn't much of a churchgoer. I know he believed in God though.
I lived in the most awesome neighborhood cause I had friends I could depend on when things were really hard. It was a townhouse development and there was a pool there and I was on the swim team for many years also.
Bless her heart I wish things could have been better for her as far as her mental illness. She is doing quite well now, I must say. She lives in a special place for folks who have her condition.
Feel free to share memories with me.
God bless
Amy
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Join the Sane
pain
anger
regrets
sorrow
down the drain
break the chain
join the sane
goin through the motions
your fake smile don't fool me
afraid to feel, afraid of emotion
afraid of it all, just let it be
holdin you back from livin your life
stop putting on such a front
let go of the pain and the strife
don't be afraid to be blunt
pain
anger
regrets
sorrow
down the drain
break the chain
join the sane
Stop playin the game
always ends up the same
don't be lame
your anger contain
your mind you can train
at times it will rain
forget all the pain
your life in a frame
enjoy your fame
pain
anger
regrets
sorrow
down the drain
break the chain
join the sane
by amy
anger
regrets
sorrow
down the drain
break the chain
join the sane
goin through the motions
your fake smile don't fool me
afraid to feel, afraid of emotion
afraid of it all, just let it be
holdin you back from livin your life
stop putting on such a front
let go of the pain and the strife
don't be afraid to be blunt
pain
anger
regrets
sorrow
down the drain
break the chain
join the sane
Stop playin the game
always ends up the same
don't be lame
your anger contain
your mind you can train
at times it will rain
forget all the pain
your life in a frame
enjoy your fame
pain
anger
regrets
sorrow
down the drain
break the chain
join the sane
by amy
My Love
The depth of your soul amazes me
It hides beneath a willow tree
Waiting to be discovered
Longing to be uncovered
You hold back your emotion
Maybe my love will be the secret potion
That you need to finally see
Whats important to be free
Of your past and of your inhibitions
Let go of your crazy superstitions
Come with me to the city
Its dazzling lights reflect off your green eyes so pretty
What is it about you?, I always liked an artist
Your sullen moods I deal with are the hardest
They have messed with my mind
And maybe I have been unkind
You say your too old to start anew
Babe you know thats not true
Its time to lighten up
Come on.. your still a young pup
We will dine in a quaint cafe
I hang on every word you say
Your arms so strong, you mystify me
I can't look in your eyes, I'm afraid you will see
I am just an illusion, my reality you may fear
Just hold me close, hold me near
An angel brought you my way
My love... please stay
by amy
for funny little artist man
The Amplified Version of LIfe
The amplified version of life
Either a travesty or blessing
Feeling everything in high definition
Both glorious and depressing
Gazing past shadows in the night
Lamenting on moments preceding
Fearing what may be ahead
Worried happiness is fleeting
Reveling in moments of joy
Beauty shall be revealed
Sorrow will depart at last
True destiny is sealed
by amy
Either a travesty or blessing
Feeling everything in high definition
Both glorious and depressing
Gazing past shadows in the night
Lamenting on moments preceding
Fearing what may be ahead
Worried happiness is fleeting
Reveling in moments of joy
Beauty shall be revealed
Sorrow will depart at last
True destiny is sealed
by amy
For My husband
Walkin' along the shore, a scenic gentle tide
Then you came along, with your stoic little smile
Salt water in the breeze, and you by my side
Sunrise over water, the waves go on for miles
You sit and paint the landscape
Your paint drips in the sand
I enjoy watching your little artist world
As I try to get a suntan
I get a little angry as you glance at another cutie
You say "I am a painter, capturing beauty is my duty"
I say, "good one babe, do you use that line alot"
You say "only when it works, but your clever.. I forgot!"
I forgive your little antics, because your boyish little ways
Have stole my heart already, and I just met you today
Your a funny little honey, your disposition is so sunny
I don't even really care that you lack a thing called money
Are you the one to take me away on a horse to a beautiful land?
I can finally see the colors you paint, my world is no longer bland.
So my love give me your hand and lets go for a swim
In this neverending sea of life, together till the end
by amy
for funny little artist man
Then you came along, with your stoic little smile
Salt water in the breeze, and you by my side
Sunrise over water, the waves go on for miles
You sit and paint the landscape
Your paint drips in the sand
I enjoy watching your little artist world
As I try to get a suntan
I get a little angry as you glance at another cutie
You say "I am a painter, capturing beauty is my duty"
I say, "good one babe, do you use that line alot"
You say "only when it works, but your clever.. I forgot!"
I forgive your little antics, because your boyish little ways
Have stole my heart already, and I just met you today
Your a funny little honey, your disposition is so sunny
I don't even really care that you lack a thing called money
Are you the one to take me away on a horse to a beautiful land?
I can finally see the colors you paint, my world is no longer bland.
So my love give me your hand and lets go for a swim
In this neverending sea of life, together till the end
by amy
for funny little artist man
The Happy Strum of the Guitar in the Night!
The happy strum of the guitar in the night
Makes everything feel allright
You feel the meaning, the story is told
The beautiful music starts to take hold
Of your fear, and of your concerns
You savor every moment, and your heart yearns
For this moment to never end...
Cause it feels like everyone is your friend!
The feeling is rare, nothing can compare
You sit gazing in your chair
and witness art so pure
The fans scream for more
Its good to kick back, relax, and chill
Being part of the crowd, oh what a thrill!
So rock on rockstar, show me what you got!
Oh yeah you got talent, not just a little, but a whole lot!
Inspired awesome riffs you play
Right on! Your gonna make it big someday!
by amy
Makes everything feel allright
You feel the meaning, the story is told
The beautiful music starts to take hold
Of your fear, and of your concerns
You savor every moment, and your heart yearns
For this moment to never end...
Cause it feels like everyone is your friend!
The feeling is rare, nothing can compare
You sit gazing in your chair
and witness art so pure
The fans scream for more
Its good to kick back, relax, and chill
Being part of the crowd, oh what a thrill!
So rock on rockstar, show me what you got!
Oh yeah you got talent, not just a little, but a whole lot!
Inspired awesome riffs you play
Right on! Your gonna make it big someday!
by amy
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