Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Depression...NOT!



Ok so I suffer from depression now and then..I am not afraid to admit it as I once was. I always thought I was just being weak or something like that. I have found that my relationship with Jesus has helped me through. Also good friends here online. (Thank you Stacey :) I find it easier to talk online than in person as I tend to put on a "everythings ok" front even when its totally not. Little things can set me off, not getting a promotion at work can lead me a freak out and thinking I am worthless..etc. But I only have melt downs like these once in a while. Medication can help so don't be afraid to ask for it although side effects can be a bummer also. Do you suffer from depression? What do you do to combat those feelings?
Its a tough world, its no wonder that people suffer from depression..economic woes alone can keep folks up at night. We are in this thing together ya'll!
One World, One people!
Peace!
Amy

Sunday, May 17, 2009

The Ascension of Our Lord, Holy day of Obligation

The Ascension of Our Lord, which occurred 40 days after Jesus Christ rose from the dead on Easter Sunday, is the final act of our redemption that Christ began on Good Friday. On this day, the risen Christ, in the sight of His apostles, ascended bodily into Heaven (Luke 24:51; Mark 16:19; Acts 1:9-11).
Don't forget Mass on Thursday for this Holy Day of Obligation :)

The Ascension of Our Lord Jesus Christ Pictures, Images and Photos

Happy Birthday to my little girl

Well Teresa turned 13 on May 14th!
I can't believe it.
I have had the flu all week, coughing and can't sleep right now so her party has been postponed till next weekend when my half brother and sister come into town. That is super exciting also!
Teresa has mixed emotions about being a teen and has told me she is still a kid till shes 14 and then she is grown up.
LOL
Glad to hear I have one more year of her being a "kid" :)

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Meeting my half brother and sister again!

They are coming to Washington DC for Memorial day!
I am excited, nervous, worried, etc!
I will write all about it here :)
Don't know what to think!
AHHHHHHHH
OK Later for now !

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Where I am coming from

looking at the sunset sky... Pictures, Images and Photos


I am inspired by my new friend Judith to examine all the times of my life. I will start with a little info about my childhood. I am the only child of my mom and dad. They wanted lots of kids but mom had infertility issues so viola, just me.
My Papa was married before and had 3 kids who are a bit older than me.(one passed away) His wife left him while he was serving in Vietnam. Then he was stationed in Maryland and met my lovely mama and they married 6 weeks after they met!
I found out about my brother and sisters at his funeral!
Mom told me that and I was like..boy you move fast huh!
I was born 10 months after they married :)

My Papa was super cool, he was a big guy 6 foot 5 with coal black hair and really dark eyes. My mom is schizophrenic but she was doing really well when they met, kind of like the schizophrenia was on the back burner and it got really bad after I was born. She was in a lot of hospitals all my life and Papa was so cool, cause we got to eat out alot and he was laid back. I sometimes would come home and find mom was in the hospital. It was hard on us both.

When he was alive every year we went to ocean city. I remember how his eyes sparkled when he looked at the ocean, like he belonged there, at the ocean, like a sailor. I love the ocean too and think of him anytime I am near the ocean. We used to sing songs, and he took me to the park and to see the airplanes at the airport. We watched them land and take off. We used to sing songs together. I have good memories, she made a bunny cake at Easter with 2 round cakes, I learned that from her. Mom used to take me to easter egg hunts, sometimes hosted by the hospitals she was in. I was in childrens chior and she loved to hear me sing. She took me to Church, sometimes I would go to Mass with this cool family down the street also. I actually learned a lot of Catholic traditions from them. My dad wasn't much of a churchgoer. I know he believed in God though.

I lived in the most awesome neighborhood cause I had friends I could depend on when things were really hard. It was a townhouse development and there was a pool there and I was on the swim team for many years also.
Bless her heart I wish things could have been better for her as far as her mental illness. She is doing quite well now, I must say. She lives in a special place for folks who have her condition.
Feel free to share memories with me.
God bless
Amy

Saturday, May 2, 2009

Join the Sane

pain

anger

regrets

sorrow

down the drain

break the chain

join the sane



goin through the motions

your fake smile don't fool me

afraid to feel, afraid of emotion

afraid of it all, just let it be



holdin you back from livin your life

stop putting on such a front

let go of the pain and the strife

don't be afraid to be blunt



pain

anger

regrets

sorrow

down the drain

break the chain

join the sane



Stop playin the game

always ends up the same

don't be lame

your anger contain

your mind you can train



at times it will rain

forget all the pain

your life in a frame

enjoy your fame



pain

anger

regrets

sorrow

down the drain

break the chain

join the sane

by amy

My Love

Philadelphia at Night Pictures, Images and Photos



The depth of your soul amazes me

It hides beneath a willow tree

Waiting to be discovered

Longing to be uncovered



You hold back your emotion

Maybe my love will be the secret potion

That you need to finally see

Whats important to be free



Of your past and of your inhibitions

Let go of your crazy superstitions

Come with me to the city

Its dazzling lights reflect off your green eyes so pretty



What is it about you?, I always liked an artist

Your sullen moods I deal with are the hardest

They have messed with my mind

And maybe I have been unkind



You say your too old to start anew

Babe you know thats not true

Its time to lighten up

Come on.. your still a young pup



We will dine in a quaint cafe

I hang on every word you say

Your arms so strong, you mystify me

I can't look in your eyes, I'm afraid you will see



I am just an illusion, my reality you may fear

Just hold me close, hold me near

An angel brought you my way

My love... please stay

by amy

for funny little artist man

The Amplified Version of LIfe

The amplified version of life

Either a travesty or blessing

Feeling everything in high definition

Both glorious and depressing



Gazing past shadows in the night

Lamenting on moments preceding

Fearing what may be ahead

Worried happiness is fleeting



Reveling in moments of joy

Beauty shall be revealed

Sorrow will depart at last

True destiny is sealed

by amy

For My husband

Walkin' along the shore, a scenic gentle tide

Then you came along, with your stoic little smile

Salt water in the breeze, and you by my side

Sunrise over water, the waves go on for miles



You sit and paint the landscape

Your paint drips in the sand

I enjoy watching your little artist world

As I try to get a suntan



I get a little angry as you glance at another cutie

You say "I am a painter, capturing beauty is my duty"

I say, "good one babe, do you use that line alot"

You say "only when it works, but your clever.. I forgot!"



I forgive your little antics, because your boyish little ways

Have stole my heart already, and I just met you today

Your a funny little honey, your disposition is so sunny

I don't even really care that you lack a thing called money



Are you the one to take me away on a horse to a beautiful land?

I can finally see the colors you paint, my world is no longer bland.

So my love give me your hand and lets go for a swim

In this neverending sea of life, together till the end

by amy

for funny little artist man

The Happy Strum of the Guitar in the Night!

The happy strum of the guitar in the night

Makes everything feel allright

You feel the meaning, the story is told

The beautiful music starts to take hold



Of your fear, and of your concerns

You savor every moment, and your heart yearns

For this moment to never end...

Cause it feels like everyone is your friend!



The feeling is rare, nothing can compare

You sit gazing in your chair

and witness art so pure

The fans scream for more



Its good to kick back, relax, and chill

Being part of the crowd, oh what a thrill!

So rock on rockstar, show me what you got!

Oh yeah you got talent, not just a little, but a whole lot!



Inspired awesome riffs you play

Right on! Your gonna make it big someday!

by amy